Sunday, December 19, 2010

Soo Lonely

Well, I knew this day would come. It is the time when I am lonely. I would say that I have been abandoned or at least it feels like that. I don't really know what to say about it, but everyone feels lonely once in a while. I just want to go out and see people, but it is almost 1am here. I know that problems will arise if I do not do anything quick and I am already falling faster than I am gaining. Weekends are suppose to be long, but for some reason they are no longer long for me anymore. I might need some sleep, but it is true that things are just terrible. Not only am I lonely, but I have no friends either so things just keep getting worse.

Time is no longer still, but moving faster than ever. I need to start looking for more opportunities or else I will be swept away like the rest of the people. I have talked to a prominent person and told him that if no college accepts me, I will have to work hard labor until I can get back on my feet. I would have to do this alone as well because nobody will stand with me in my time of struggle or need. I am just one person writing in this pointless blog that nobody reads. I sometimes wonder why I have a blog and why I am even wasting my time writing in it, but I think it may help me long term. That is just a though, although I really must get to my work, so I will keep you guys posted. Damn its just not good anymore.


  1. One reason for writing in your blog, maybe the best reason, is to get your thoughts out and down so you can reread them and reconsider them. It really doesn't matter if anyone else reads it. But you never know who or how many are reading it. You should do the blog for yourself, not for an audience. Maybe sometimes you will get some useful feedback but it's just a plus, it shouldn't be the reason for doing it.

  2. Yea, I think, that in the long term, this blog will be more of a help than a downfall. However, in the short term, it doesn't seem like it. I will keep persevering. I want to see how far I can go before I break down completely. I have no expectations for this blog, so I guess I will continue writing for myself and it doesn't matter if anyone reads it or not.

  3. Oh, us anonymous lurkers will be reading all right, you just might not know about it. Maybe some of us will emerge from the shadows eventually.