Death of a Dear Leader

Today is Sunday 12/18/2011 and Kim Jong-Il is dead.

Tomorrow will be an interesting day because we all know that Kim Jong-un is the next to lead. We shall see how the world reacts to this news. It will indeed be an interesting day. We must wait and see.

Sad World

 Findng Out

Anonymous said...

So I read some of your posts... And your About Me section... It seems you don't suffer from depression but you accpeted that you do. Yeah, life is sad...and unfair...and pretty stupid and not worth living when all we have is dull, stupid, sad things going on around us... And you cant go around your instincts and be a hypocrit and pretend you like something just because its socially acceptable... Thats whats wrong with you.. You are not a good actor.. If you manage to pretend you like stuff that everybody likes, not be rude to people than everything else will come to you.. You will get dumber.. But you have to choose. Be smart or be happy. In this world you cant have both. Ive tried and its impossible because people dont accept the truth. So you have to pretend, and you will notice that everyday you're getting dumber and dumber.. But that doesnt matter because your happy.. If you just like to be smart and cant be dumb then live what you can in pain and eventually you will reach a point that you see that theres is no sense in living... What a world we live in...

It's a sad world indeed. You helped me to notice.

Disconnection

As everyday passes, I few a bit of disconnection between me and everyone. As everyone pays attention on social issues, I pay no attention at all. I focus all my energy on work and ideas. That is all I have because I have no more loose friends. I only have my base and a couple of good ones which I do not see often. I want to focus on my work now and continue on with my progress. Hopefully it pays off and I will never have to worry about any social issues.

It seems that I have decided to take the path of no return. A path where I don't pretend and just continue with my work. I think I could make something great and I will run towards that goal. I will take a few with me so I don't get too lonely, but it seems to be a valid game plan no doubt. I will be patient and see. 

Time is Up

Winter is coming...

I have been busy for the past couple of months applying all my concepts and putting them into good use. I have been able to pick myself up and moved forward to a better place. The problem now is that maybe I am burnt out. I have disregarded all my friendships for better results of my academic life. I am not even sure if I could get up to a higher academic institution before getting shot down. I am just hanging on a piece of string with not much time left. I have wasted a lot of time today. I am scared of reverting back into my old self; however, I am scared that my new self might destroy what's left of me.

It is times like these that I make a post here. I already wanted to abandon this project all together, but for some reason, it is a safe haven for me. Even though nobody reads it, I am grateful that it is here. I think my time is almost up and I need to start re-evaluating my worth. I also need to get some new friends or I will always be stuck in the situation I am in now. I shall post more frequently when I have time. Thanks for reading.

RIP Steve Jobs...

He told a reporter that taking LSD was one of the two or three most important things he had done in his life.

You were well respected.

Always will be behind

I think there is no way of catching up. Once behind, always behind no matter what. I think I might have learned this the hard way. There is no more examination or testing like I said I was going to do. Only failed ideals. I can't even strip away everything and glue it back together. I don't know what will happen next. The future looks grim and warm at the same time. Uncertainty is among everyone and myself included. It looks like I may have to do an alternate thing that could help or destroy me.

I will see how things play out in the near future and will report back.

Can't Keep Up

There is nothing to write about anymore. I have actually caught up with my work and beyond. There are no more rants to produce so this blog could be dead soon. I need to figure out something to write. I was thinking about dropping this one and opening a new one about something actually interesting. I learned a lot from this site and will use it to my advantage later.

I know nobody really cares what happens. Even though my work has caught up, I am still in a bad position. I have always been a bad position. I will think about it for a while and will update nobody later.