Madness

Have I become mad?

The idea of time has gotten to me. I seem to have no time to do anything anymore. Hours pass like minutes while weeks pass like days. My big dream of higher education seems to be falling apart and I am not sure if that is normal. Maybe it takes time to adapt, but it doesn't look like it. I seemed to have relapsed into a poor state of mind where anything and everything have become distractions. Maybe this is the reason I have no sense of time.

I think the computer is the enemy due to its distractions. I have taken measures to make sure that my computer did not get the best of me, but it did and I guess I am in a constant struggle with it. I really am not sure how to deal with it anymore except for throwing it all away. The big problem is that the computer has become a necessity for life today.

What really is the problem is myself though. I have become soft and lazy. I simply do not care anymore and that is a bigger problem. I need a way to discipline myself, but for some reason, I am just too tired to do so.

The world is spinning while I am slowly dying. I made mistakes that cannot be fixed and I am paying the price for it now.