A repeat from the past

I just realized that this feeling has happened once before. I did recover from that so now I think I should be fine. Things will get better soon hopefully.

As I wait, I start withering away in the wind. Slowly dying and thinking who will pull the plug on me.

Looking..

It is 2am and I think I have lost it completely. I am looking for something and I don't know what it is. Whatever I tried to substitute into what I am looking for just isn't anywhere. What am I looking for? Is it the Solutions to my Answers? So many questions, too little time, I need some sleep or else things won't out well. I just hate myself right now because I had so many chances to avoid this, but look where I am. I am back to square one again and I think I said this a thousand times. I am going through the infinite loop. I need some way to break the pattern, but it seems impossible right now. I need to think and improvise or else I will be stuck at this dead end going towards the road to nowhere.