Mental Block

I have sort of a mental block going on which prevents me from making moves. It is very frustrating to deal with because it's just annoying. Every time I try, there is always something in the back of my mind that tells me to stop.

Is this due to past events?

I could say I will stop fucking around, but does that really mean anything? I will stumble constantly until I make a permanent change. I don't know if I am capable of doing this.

Is time really the answer?

If so, then I don't think I can ever make a move.

More Angry

As the days of happiness passes, I grow more angry. I don't know why, but all this anger is just consuming me and just turning me into a bad person. I don't want to be angry anymore, because I just want to turn that anger into production. I just can't fuck around anymore. I really need to change or else I will be in a path of failure.

I need to start thinking more positively. I need to change my ways. I am just too lost to do all that right now. I almost have nothing to lose.

A repeat from the past

I just realized that this feeling has happened once before. I did recover from that so now I think I should be fine. Things will get better soon hopefully.

As I wait, I start withering away in the wind. Slowly dying and thinking who will pull the plug on me.