Lost

There are so many things that I want to be good at, but I am beginning to understand that I cannot master everything. I tried to follow my plan of being solid at my favorite activities but realize that I will lose those skills if I stop practicing. I spend every day diversifying my time and energy on different things which puts me out of focus. There are only so many hours in a day and I cannot be juggling 5 different things at once. It is not efficient and will not make me good. Most of the activities I like are also location dependent meaning I can only do them if I have access to those practice facilities. Once I move to a different location, I no longer have the facilities to continue practicing. I must find a constant for all these activities if I am to succeed. Over the weeks, it seems I am at a loss of what I really want to do.

I have a drive to be the best at something, but I can't pinpoint what exactly. It seems like my mind is guiding me to things that are very risky. For this reason, I don't want to dive too deep to realize that I am actually no good. I think the answer is to keep doing what I like and whatever I don't stop doing is the thing I really want to do. It will come to the process of natural selection in my mind. Whatever thing I do the most is the thing I really care for. The things I stop doing are the things I don't really care about. I think this is an approach I must take to move forward. It may be the only way to pick a few instead of all.

I don't want to waste anymore time and energy on things I am not serious about. I must keep on pushing forward because if I stop, it will be over. It's my only choice because anything else will lead to failure. I want to be the best. I suggest anyone in the same boat to do the same. Keep pushing!