Chilling Thoughts

I have to stay up to finish some things. I should have done it before but that was impossible because I was too distracted. Now I am cold and it is getting later and later. At least I am not doing this at 2am which I would be doing if I was writing this a couple of months ago. Things like that have generally improved a little I guess. I still have to work on it more. I have recently received nice comments from an anonymous person here on the blog. I will put that in a post one day because I think it is nice. My life is not going to get better any time soon so I must always prepare for the worst. If things continue on like this, then it will be no good. I must find a way to stop it.

I must find ways to improve my concentration and interest levels. I must find a way to be more happier socially. I should follow the advice of the anonymous comments that I have received. Exchanging the price of knowing to not knowing. I do not think this is the right choice though because it just doesn't feel right at all. I will be testing some of these theories soon and will let you guys know. The upcoming weeks are going to be busy for me due to the fact that I have many things scheduled ahead. I will do my best to keep you guys updated but I still doubt many are reading.

Late

It is late and I hear a depressing song stuck in my head associated with the show I watched. It is also pretty late and cold so I have a bad feeling right now. I wish it could go away but it doesn't seem like it will. What should I do? Should I just sit back and let this destroy me?

I think I will try to calm down and get some sleep. I have nothing left in my life because I already screwed it up this year. Nothing will come for me and nothing will come true. I will be alone all my life and at the end will not be happy. I must get out of this place while I still can and go somewhere far far away. I need to start over because nothing else is working.