Nothing Matters

Nothing fucking matters. Nobody gives a fuck about you or me because nothing matters. Nothing matters because most of the shit in life don't matter. It is only YOU who can make it matter. If something matters, then put your energy into it until it doesn't matter anymore. It might take days, months, or even forever, but you gotta do it. If you don't, then it truly doesn't matter.

I am saying all this because a lot of bad shit has been happening to me, but I don't give a fuck because it doesn't matter. There are only a few things that matter TO ME and that is the stuff I should really be focused on. If I focused on the things that don't matter, then I would just be wasting my time.

Find out what matters and what doesn't. Focus on the things that do matter because that's the only way to succeed.

Hitting Rock Bottom

I think I have hit rock bottom. since everything seems to be over. I have not been able to keep up with some of my classes so I am dropping one. Which leaves the rest... The grades have not been good and for one class, the teacher does not like me and has decided to give me a poor grade on a project that I have worked equally hard on with my partner. My partner got a decent grade and there was about a 30 points difference. I do not think I could refute that because my partner did do the majority part and I may have screwed up during presentation. I do not know how I am going to survive this year and if I do completely screw up, it is legitimately totally over. The big leagues of schools will have no interest in taking me in...

I do not know what direction I should be taking. I have found out that I must be in complete isolation or things could turn out poorly for me. Things are just not good for me now and I need someone to help me or something. I have to start calming down or else I will kill someone.