Nothing to Lose

I think I have hit a point in life where it seems I have nothing left. As I sit in this empty room, I feel like I only have one last move to make before everything is over. I must stay strong though, because I believe this has happened once before in my life. I have been reading my past posts and it shows me what has happened before. It is a guide for me to continue on and to move forward. I don't know how far I can go, but it has to be better than now. It looks like I have to revert back to my old ways and start focusing on what is right. I am nobody's friend and nobody is my friend.

I am alone and only have comrades to count on. I feel like it's really time to start from square one again. But this time, I must do something different, something drastic. This time, I must make real friends and meet real special people who I can care about. I must forget about the past to continue on living the present to move into the future.

Maybe then, I can truly move on.

Quick Years

The years have definitely gone by quickly and as soon as I know it, things will be different. There is no change in that and I realize it. I also realize is that I have to move on and stop closing myself in. I think that is the reason why I am in such a bad position. People have moved on already and I am still stuck. I fear that it is already too late and that the bandwagon has passed. I have decided to stop wasting time with meaningless things and to start spending more time on the things that matter.

I will be including that part of my journey in this blog that nobody reads. Hopefully someone will find it useful. I will probably be destroying all the evidence of this site so that nobody could see in the future. Who knows, like I said before things change quickly so moods change faster.

I stand alone and will continue to do so until I give up and start talking. My friends have left me behind, I am as good as dead and nobody will care.