Nothing to Lose

I think I have hit a point in life where it seems I have nothing left. As I sit in this empty room, I feel like I only have one last move to make before everything is over. I must stay strong though, because I believe this has happened once before in my life. I have been reading my past posts and it shows me what has happened before. It is a guide for me to continue on and to move forward. I don't know how far I can go, but it has to be better than now. It looks like I have to revert back to my old ways and start focusing on what is right. I am nobody's friend and nobody is my friend.

I am alone and only have comrades to count on. I feel like it's really time to start from square one again. But this time, I must do something different, something drastic. This time, I must make real friends and meet real special people who I can care about. I must forget about the past to continue on living the present to move into the future.

Maybe then, I can truly move on.

Soo Lonely

Well, I knew this day would come. It is the time when I am lonely. I would say that I have been abandoned or at least it feels like that. I don't really know what to say about it, but everyone feels lonely once in a while. I just want to go out and see people, but it is almost 1am here. I know that problems will arise if I do not do anything quick and I am already falling faster than I am gaining. Weekends are suppose to be long, but for some reason they are no longer long for me anymore. I might need some sleep, but it is true that things are just terrible. Not only am I lonely, but I have no friends either so things just keep getting worse.

Time is no longer still, but moving faster than ever. I need to start looking for more opportunities or else I will be swept away like the rest of the people. I have talked to a prominent person and told him that if no college accepts me, I will have to work hard labor until I can get back on my feet. I would have to do this alone as well because nobody will stand with me in my time of struggle or need. I am just one person writing in this pointless blog that nobody reads. I sometimes wonder why I have a blog and why I am even wasting my time writing in it, but I think it may help me long term. That is just a though, although I really must get to my work, so I will keep you guys posted. Damn its just not good anymore.