Posting??

So I have to say, these past couple of months have been a roller coaster. I am just writing about my experiences and how things are. Everything still sucks and I have been learning a lot lately. I think that at the end of the tunnel, there won't be any night. Only eternal darkness darkness awaits me on the other side. I learned that I can not depend on others because if I do, things will be bad. I must stick to the fundamentals if I am ever to live in this world.

What is striking me now is Staying Focused. For some reason I have lost grasp of humanity and might just give up because I don't have the impressive resume for other people to see. This has been going through a lot of people's minds. I have one thing to say though...

Screw the others because they could worry all they want. We only have one life to live and I know you guys heard this like a million times already. Nobody can have what they want. I have learned that the hard way. I tried to get what I want and what I get is poor results. I think I just wanted too much and I have failed at the end. I lost faith in myself and when I should be catching up, I am slacking off. The way to fix this is just to go Cold Turkey. I have thought of ways... Work Ethics and Solutions. However, if one gives up then, one gives up forever. I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED or else I won't make it alive.

I have to say though, people don't see a good opportunity right in front of them. They sometimes have to take a bus to a middle of nowhere and find a small coffee shop to sit in. I want to do that one day, I just want to forget about all my problems and take a bus to a middle of nowhere. At least over there I could commit an act and nobody would ever know. I wouldn't even have to worry about it. 

I never believed in this blog and I still don't. I just write to report in on what I see and want to stay consistent. I have seen other kinds of similar things and they always fail to keep updated with their readers. It pisses me off because it seems that if one doesn't post anything, they have succeeded. They don't tell anyone though. For me, I will never succeed.

Just a Suggestion and After School Goals

Well, I figured it out, yesterday or I should say today rather, I tried to stay up all night thinking that I would finish my homework while I was up. Turns out that it does not work like that and I just end up sleeping in front of the table but waking up to thinking about homework. It was one of the worst experiences and then I decided to just go to the bed and when I woke up like thirty minutes before school, I am able to start working again. So I guess the best idea is to get as much sleep as possible and waking up to be well focused and organized. This is a lesson learned by me and I learned it the hard way. I wasted so much time trying to stay awake that I could have just slept through it and woke up to do work. Now that this idea is complete I also would add that always start out homework with English because answering questions keep the pace going. I also use to think that music helped with homework and now I am starting to doubt that.

Tomorrow I start my first day of After School and I am still not sure how it is going to be. My simple main goal would be to get my work ethics straightened out and my secondary goal would be try to get some new friends. Who knows, the possibilities are endless but it is just After School, how bad could it be? I shall let you guys know tomorrow.