Nothing Matters

Nothing fucking matters. Nobody gives a fuck about you or me because nothing matters. Nothing matters because most of the shit in life don't matter. It is only YOU who can make it matter. If something matters, then put your energy into it until it doesn't matter anymore. It might take days, months, or even forever, but you gotta do it. If you don't, then it truly doesn't matter.

I am saying all this because a lot of bad shit has been happening to me, but I don't give a fuck because it doesn't matter. There are only a few things that matter TO ME and that is the stuff I should really be focused on. If I focused on the things that don't matter, then I would just be wasting my time.

Find out what matters and what doesn't. Focus on the things that do matter because that's the only way to succeed.

Disconnection

As everyday passes, I feel a bit of disconnection between me and everyone. As everyone pays attention on social issues, I pay no attention at all. I focus all my energy on work and ideas. That is all I have because I have no more loose friends. I only have my base and a couple of good ones which I do not see often. I want to focus on my work now and continue on with my progress. Hopefully it pays off and I will never have to worry about any social issues.

It seems that I have decided to take the path of no return. A path where I don't pretend and just continue with my work. I think I could make something great and I will run towards that goal. I will take a few with me so I don't get too lonely, but it seems to be a valid game plan no doubt. I will be patient and see.

Nothing To Think About

I have been deprived of friendship and many other things. However, I am trying to deal with it. I believe that it is the wrong thing to do and I should maybe embrace such acts. I need to re-examine some things and should maybe consider in bringing back more confidence. As of now, I have nothing, but tomorrow, I may have everything.

Late

It is late and I hear a depressing song stuck in my head associated with the show I watched. It is also pretty late and cold so I have a bad feeling right now. I wish it could go away but it doesn't seem like it will. What should I do? Should I just sit back and let this destroy me?

I think I will try to calm down and get some sleep. I have nothing left in my life because I already screwed it up this year. Nothing will come for me and nothing will come true. I will be alone all my life and at the end will not be happy. I must get out of this place while I still can and go somewhere far far away. I need to start over because nothing else is working.