My Thoughts on Time

Found in Italy. Wonderful artwork by artist A. Bauesi or A. Barresi

When I was looking for a way to rid my sickness, I knew things were going south again. This wasn't the first time I was lost and it certainly won't be the last. Through my agony, I knew I was once again wasting time but didn't know to what extent. It wasn't until I started measuring time when something inside me clicked. We don't have as much time as we think we do.  

Dive in with me and see for yourself:

How much time do we have from tomorrow until the end of the year? Today is November 1st and there are 30 days left in November. Let's add the 31 days in December on to that which makes 61 days in total. We have 24 hours in a day so in total, we have 1464 hours to spend our time. Let's divide this up.

Eat - 2 hours a day * 61 days =  122 hours
Sleep - 8 hours a day * 61 days = 488 hours
Work - 5 hours a day * 61 days = 305 hours
Play - ???
Total = 915/1464 = 62.5% of our time on the essentials.
What's left = What will you do with the remaining 549 hours? Watch TV?

I came up with some conservative numbers which I think is reasonable. Your hours may be different, because everyone is different. However, the main idea is all humans are operating under this time. It is what they do with it that differentiates them from everyone else. If we extend this idea to our death, it really opens our eyes to how much time we really have. After looking at time in this manner, I understood what I really needed to do. I decided not to waste a second more because it really is finite. So the next time you do something you consider a distraction, just remember back to the calculations I made above.

I certainly will.

Nothing Matters

Nothing fucking matters. Nobody gives a fuck about you or me because nothing matters. Nothing matters because most of the shit in life don't matter. It is only YOU who can make it matter. If something matters, then put your energy into it until it doesn't matter anymore. It might take days, months, or even forever, but you gotta do it. If you don't, then it truly doesn't matter.

I am saying all this because a lot of bad shit has been happening to me, but I don't give a fuck because it doesn't matter. There are only a few things that matter TO ME and that is the stuff I should really be focused on. If I focused on the things that don't matter, then I would just be wasting my time.

Find out what matters and what doesn't. Focus on the things that do matter because that's the only way to succeed.

Chilling Thoughts

I have to stay up to finish some things. I should have done it before but that was impossible because I was too distracted. Now I am cold and it is getting later and later. At least I am not doing this at 2am which I would be doing if I was writing this a couple of months ago. Things like that have generally improved a little I guess. I still have to work on it more. I have recently received nice comments from an anonymous person here on the blog. I will put that in a post one day because I think it is nice. My life is not going to get better any time soon so I must always prepare for the worst. If things continue on like this, then it will be no good. I must find a way to stop it.

I must find ways to improve my concentration and interest levels. I must find a way to be more happier socially. I should follow the advice of the anonymous comments that I have received. Exchanging the price of knowing to not knowing. I do not think this is the right choice though because it just doesn't feel right at all. I will be testing some of these theories soon and will let you guys know. The upcoming weeks are going to be busy for me due to the fact that I have many things scheduled ahead. I will do my best to keep you guys updated but I still doubt many are reading.