A New Hope

A new time and era is coming for me and this is actually something that can be very exciting. But, I have to be very careful because one wrong step can kill me. I have to be strong by fighting the evil spirits inside me; and not only that, but I have to evaluate each individual to make sure they are okay. These are going to be strange times for me because I have been away from that environment for such a long time. I am not sure how I am going to fit in, especially when I am already depressed.

The things I am doing will determine my future. Everything depends if I enjoy it or not and if I don't, then I am in big trouble. It means my core ideas have been flawed from the start and I will probably have to start over. Since I am very late in my studies, that would not be a good thing so I will have to try my hardest to survive. There will probably be plenty of distractions, but I will have to fight them off to make sure everything is okay.

It's a new hope for me and probably the last chance I will get for a while.

More Angry

As the days of happiness passes, I grow more angry. I don't know why, but all this anger is just consuming me and just turning me into a bad person. I don't want to be angry anymore, because I just want to turn that anger into production. I just can't fuck around anymore. I really need to change or else I will be in a path of failure.

I need to start thinking more positively. I need to change my ways. I am just too lost to do all that right now. I almost have nothing to lose.

Patience

I think patience is the key on winning the game. However I am running out of patience as each day goes on. People are starting to irritate me more and more. I must think back to my roots and keep re-evaluating my situation or I will fall on the ground with nobody extending his or her hand out to help me up. Things are going to be rough, but if I continue, it should be for the best I hope. Patience is all I need, but I don't like patience because it is a pain.