My Thoughts on Time

Found in Italy. Wonderful artwork by artist A. Bauesi or A. Barresi

When I was looking for a way to rid my sickness, I knew things were going south again. This wasn't the first time I was lost and it certainly won't be the last. Through my agony, I knew I was once again wasting time but didn't know to what extent. It wasn't until I started measuring time when something inside me clicked. We don't have as much time as we think we do.  

Dive in with me and see for yourself:

How much time do we have from tomorrow until the end of the year? Today is November 1st and there are 30 days left in November. Let's add the 31 days in December on to that which makes 61 days in total. We have 24 hours in a day so in total, we have 1464 hours to spend our time. Let's divide this up.

Eat - 2 hours a day * 61 days =  122 hours
Sleep - 8 hours a day * 61 days = 488 hours
Work - 5 hours a day * 61 days = 305 hours
Play - ???
Total = 915/1464 = 62.5% of our time on the essentials.
What's left = What will you do with the remaining 549 hours? Watch TV?

I came up with some conservative numbers which I think is reasonable. Your hours may be different, because everyone is different. However, the main idea is all humans are operating under this time. It is what they do with it that differentiates them from everyone else. If we extend this idea to our death, it really opens our eyes to how much time we really have. After looking at time in this manner, I understood what I really needed to do. I decided not to waste a second more because it really is finite. So the next time you do something you consider a distraction, just remember back to the calculations I made above.

I certainly will.

Focus

It's that time of year again and I still have nothing to show. I've noticed my progress slowing down, and I'm not sure if it's natural or if it's just me. I've have a feeling it's just me and I'm just letting myself down again.

I want to be the best at what I do, because I just want to prove to myself that I can. I want to be so good that it allows me to live how I want to live. It's really all I care about in life—Freedom. I'm not talking about freedom in my later years. I am talking about freedom now and forever. Every decision I make will affect me now and in the long run. It's all about making the right decisions and these days, we not only have to grind hard but grind smart.  It's not just about putting in the work anymore; It's about staying focused too.

It's not easy to be focused and if it were, everyone would be the best. I couldn't help comparing myself to others recently and I knew this was a waste of time. How the fuck can I be focused if I'm thinking of some fucker who's better than me? I need to remind myself that, there will always be someone who is better, so I can get back to working towards my dreams. I need to tell myself that it doesn't matter how others are because I can't control it. I can only control myself and that is what matters.

The moment I realize that the only thing that really matters is myself will be the moment I can finally focus.

Experiments and Concepts

Well lets see, today is a Saturday and it is always good to start homework after Friday or Saturday because Sunday could be a day of relaxation or a day of ultimate stress. So I wake up at 5am to get started because I am quite sure that I wouldn't be able to accomplish anything. So what do I accomplish? Well for five hours I accomplished absolutely nothing and that is terrible. I did watch a movie though which took about two hours. If you are wondering what movie, forget about it. Anyways so as I am waiting for what to do next I decide to finally open a blog so I can get my focus back to homework so for the next couple hours I could start it. It is really tough to get it actually started from the stuff I explained before in my other posts.

Today should be okay if I get something started. I have been bored for so long that I gave up pretty much and I am looking for something to do but then you may say that I could do my homework. That is quite impossible because of the situation. I might need to be forced to start homework or maybe I should slap myself but I am too lazy to do that even and it hurts. So this is terrible, I can't start my homework and I wasted 5 hours basically doing nothing important. A pretty bad start already for a Saturday. I am not sure what my next move is but it will be something interesting.

Today is the school event which I was talking about so I will make another post tomorrow to give a pretty much overview on how it was, then I will continue writing about concepts to approach these kinds of events. I will be giving brief ideas as well on my take on things and what I did. It should be somewhat interesting but will not be finished as I have other things to work on.