Tomorrow's Another Day

Yeah, I remember this quote vividly when I was in another country a long time ago. Today was just horrid and unproductive so I hope tomorrow is just another day.

Just have to sit down and buckle up so tomorrow comes.

Have a listen to pass the time:

More Angry

As the days of happiness passes, I grow more angry. I don't know why, but all this anger is just consuming me and just turning me into a bad person. I don't want to be angry anymore, because I just want to turn that anger into production. I just can't fuck around anymore. I really need to change or else I will be in a path of failure.

I need to start thinking more positively. I need to change my ways. I am just too lost to do all that right now. I almost have nothing to lose.

Improving Thyself

Well, since I lost the best thing I ever had because of my stupid ways, I must continue forward. Don't get me wrong, I will still admire her, but I must get on with it or I will really fall into some depression. I am sorry about rambling about this stuff since you guys probably heard it a million times by now.

Okay, so I have to start anew. I have to be able to get on somehow, but it is really hard. Like the invisible force, something is blocking me from moving on. Maybe my head is fucking around with me, but I don't really know. So I'll stop rambling and will stop fucking around. I have been reading my previous posts on self-reliance and I think it's the right time to start applying them again. I have taken a year break to figure things out and now I am back with vengeance. All I have to say is fucking " watch out" because I'll be back!

Am I blind?

I don't know how to answer this question, but I must be blind. I couldn't see the best thing that happened to me and now, I can't see what is going on anymore. Everything to me is just like a mysterious mist that looms over the horizon. There are no happy feelings anymore, just darkness followed by more darkness. My eyes and soul are tired and it seems like the only thing left for me is death. It seems like there is no reversal for this kind of feeling. Unless I come up with something quick, I will be just another blind man who is feeling the elephant for the first time. But the real question is, why am I blind?

It probably is because I don't trust anyone. I have become paranoid and it has taken a toll on my mind. Things are just not as good as I think anymore. My mind has been too spoiled and it's time to start from the beginning again.

Broken

I have completely broken down. With nothing to do and nothing to say, I have nothing to look forward to. The one important person who was important to me has abandoned me and I could only say that it was my fault. My futile attempts to recover has failed and my audience has dwindled into thin air. It really looks like I will be returning to my self-destructive ways soon just waiting to die in sorrow in this sorry world. I will never become this person I hoped to be. I will never be able to recover my already weak mind. Nothing looks bright anymore, light begins to fall.

Darkness is here.

Back to work

Finished with my bullshit mini-break and back on track. I am already a bit behind and need to catch up. Need to get a job soon and need to work on more important things. My life is already a mess and another year isn't really going to help since it is the last useless year of this institute. I have taken the advice that I was given to heart so I will keep working on that. I have received more information about the future and will stride towards those ideas. Things could either go up or down right now, so I have to start focusing. More info to come soon. Need to get an idea on how everything feels like again.

I haven't kept my part of the deal so I was thinking of maybe trashing the whole blog thing. I will consider that idea since it was never a good idea in the first place. Things should be different now so everything will be taken under careful consideration.

Stopped Posting

I will be on a mini break and won't be posting for a while. There is nothing to say, but I am doing poorly. I know what to do to get back on track, but it does not seem very likely that I will. I just wish I things were different but they can not be. This site has slowed down as well, but it will go back later. I am still working on a How To GUIDE on how to beat procrastination. Like I said before, this one will be a long one because I still have some testing to do and I need to edit the article constantly. It will be a good one once I put it out there for you guys to see. I'll start posting when I feel it is right.

Starting Fresh

Well, again I have been shot down and again I have said the same thing about starting fresh. This time I have a better plan that could help me. This time I will be much more prepared and equipped for the job. This time I will make it to the top and there is no shooting me down. I will persevere or else I will die.